Buffy ran, she ran from the stage and straight out into the street. She didn't know where she was running to, but just kept going.
She found herself in the cemetery. She sat down on the ground and cried. She was so confused, Spike tried to kill her, all of them actually. He was so brash, not romantic at all. He was nothing like Angel or Riley.
Maybe that may be the point. Angel left her 'for her own good'; Spike would never do that, apparently not even for his own good.
Riley, thinking about it now was just Angel rebound.
Being with Spike was awesome, but scared the hell out of her. The feelings were too intense. She forgot about everything, including Dawn. What was she going to do? If Giles were here, he'd remind her about how awful Spike used to be and say that if the chip was removed, that he'd just be evil again. Then he might leave.
Like her Dad.
Like Angel.
Like Riley.
Like Giles.
Like her Mom.
She had been through enough, lately and well she didn't know if she could take anymore. Spike was the only person she had feelings for. Oh, she cared for the others, like she was supposed to, but it was muted some how. Not with Spike. Why? She had no idea.
She heard leave crunch behind her and Buffy jumped to her feet. she had Mr. Pointy in one hand ready to strike when a hand was placed on her shoulder from behind. She spun around and when she saw it was Spike, punched him in the face instead of staking him outright.
"Oh, foreplay again is it?" he said as he picked himself up off the ground.
His smart-ass attitude really made her mad. "Go away Spike, you're the one I was trying to get away from." She tried to walk away from him but he spun her around and held her in place "Buffy, I did not ask that Buggar thing to spit out that song, but it is the only thing that has been on my mind. It must have been all those drinks that must have made me get up there in the first place. "
"Blood you mean."
"Yeah, Buffy, I am a vampire, it is what we drink."
"Let me go, Spike."
"Or what?"
She tried to get away and when her struggles came of no avail, she slumped into his arms crying. Voicing her thoughts that she had earlier through the sobs.
After she was done he spoke. "I cannot promise you anything Buffy, except the fact that I love you. I do not know what I am going to do if this chip ever makes it out of my head. I know I won't hurt you, because I can already do that now if I wanted to."
"You think so,huh?" Her jaw was set defiantly.
"Buffy, please let me finish. Angel was your first real love, and he hurt you badly. Soldier Boy Riley helped to ease that pain and the pain from that sodding jerk Parker. Now I hope your ready for something more mature. There are no guarantees in life, not even a vampire's. Angel and I are proof. Not even death was a guarantee for us, or you Buffy. They didn't tell me, or I would have stopped them, Pet. I found out when I saw you walking down the stairs, and realized it wasn't Buffybot. Please believe me, Luv, I did not want this, but it is what it is."
"And you used to be a poet and couldn't come up with anything better than 'it is what it is'?" she smiled, it seemed ok, now just listening to Spike, he was telling the truth, or believed he was.
"They never claimed I was a good one." He loved her smile, almost as much as watching her slay the Baddies. He used to be one of those Baddies, but for now, for her he would try and behave.
They kissed each other with soft kissses that suddenly turned hungry with their intensity. Buffy pulled away before it could get too far. "Not yet, Spike. Let's do this right."
"But we've already done it, Luv." and he went in to taste Buffy's lips again. She stopped him.
"I'm not saying we'll never do it again, just not right now." she kissed him again, "We need to get back before they start tearing up the town looking for us."
So they walked back to the club, hand in hand.
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